If you want infinity just close your eyes. Release the hatch. You have two choices, love or fear. Will you climb back up the rabbit hole, back to your world of cozy symbols? If you feel resistance, if you feel the burn of curiosity etching its way onto the backs of your eyelids then do not retreat. That feeling in your side is intuition, it has always trusted you, now it is your turn. What have you to loose? Dignity. You abandoned your ideologies at the gate. There is nothing to prove in your naked existence.